Breaking Point

I dream,

in words,

with my body

my mind and soul.

As the words

tumble,

stumble and break.

My fear being

Your pain

on which the truth does carry.

You had me and used me,

for that I won’t forget,

how unaware.

I must protect

never lie about a feeling

so I can become free of

the burden of you.

Shame and embarrassment

for at this age

I must learn

to express these feelings

it is to that end I yearn.

 

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The Death of a Real Star

Today is two days after Xmas.  Princess Leah is gone.  Jabba the Hut anyone?  She was beautiful inside and out.  Come on, Lenny, Prince, and David, just to name few more.  In my humble opinion, Princess Diana was the beginning of the end of my generation of people taught to be obsessed with attention.  I would just like make it passed this years finish line before another exctremly influencial ‘Demi-god’ leaves us.  RIP Ms. Fisher. 

Daily Prompt: Tart

via Daily Prompt: Tart

A sour explosion as my teeth grind the mandarin wedge between them

Brief moment of disappointment in hopes for something sweet…

With momentary shock, I realize that orange peel had deceived me

My mouth is only searching for its next piece, baited and waiting

I pop in another, the chemicals coursing through my body

Much to my pleasured amazement, I push aside my caffeine

As the tart rhythm moves my body into the rising of the sun.JM2016

 

 

The Next Step

 

Don’t leave me hanging;

For your next best thing;

I will not wait as my wrinkles deepen;

You choose not to slow down;

As the voices bleed into the one;

Much to my dismay;

You will never wait for me;

Loyalty a thing long passed;

Love being the only  truth on solid ground;

In this dream of a world we call home.

I am always trying to think of the next step.  Especially with my life, I often wonder if people think the same way that I do.

I was born  before a PC  was as common in a home as a TV.  I was elated as well as extremely curious when we got a TV  with a remote and cable I was ten. So I seriously struggle ‘keeping up’ with this constantly manipulated technological environment that we seem to have created for ourselves now.

It is hard to commit to the next step for me, this world we now live in seems to be full of people who lack impulse control, so you are never really sure where you stand.  What is even worse it is okay!  I can feel like a million bucks and then turn on my computer and in a matter of seconds, I am over the hill, I have a disease, and I feel the need to psychologically re-evaluate all my relationships.

How do I teach my daughter that the things outside of her aren’t as important as her self esteem and self worth?  It scares me and yet I welcome the challenge with love and deep commitment.  I am a Jellyfish or a Helicopter Parent either way, my daughter, like my son, will know that loving oneself first is the most important thing when it comes to taking another step in life.  This is a tough lesson when faced with only a faint light a the end of any proverbial tunnel.  Especially after repeatedly  fulfilling the  demands and needs of others before considering your own.

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