Jaded by the magical ball
No throttle forward can be taken
Until the bated decision is made
Powerless, breath is held on high
Suspense fueled by eggshells
By the minds that can’t make
Tenterhooks and glass brooks
Flowing through a standstill
Energies on overdrive
As fury subsides
The calm sets in
As unreasonable whispers
When the Phoenix appears
Burning assumptions to the ground.
Tea for two;
tea for me.
Tea for you;
Liquid gold running through.
A stomach will settle.
Time will stand still.
Tea for me;
tea for you.
via Daily Prompt: Tea
I am excited because we are half way through our year and if I look back, boy has there been some major advances in my personal life!!! Thank heavens!
I decided after much reflection to leave my partner of ten years. I would risk even going so far as to say he has issues because he is narsasistic. I didn’t really even know the true meaning of the word until I met him. I took our daughter and left a dog, a house, new truck and new camper as well. I know I made the right decision because I haven’t cried for as all long as we have been apart and other things in my life are coming together quite nicely now.
Our young daughter is living with me and has adjusted to the changes and I think she totally accepts that her father and I will never live under the same roof again. My home is our home and our old place is also her home some of the time.
I got hired at Drug Store with wonderful caring staff with whom I have become instant pals with. I got my learners lisence so I can learn to drive and eventually get my own vehicle. I am much happier and feel no more anxiety(go figure!).
So yay for me! Yay for my daughter! We can be self reliant and confident girls, proud of our wisedom and ability for deep compassion. These are things that we had to hide or even ignore when living with my ex-partner.
I can say, yes, 2016 is officially done, history, we can move onwards and upwards with no burdens that are not ours. We can be empowered, inspired and treated with dignity we deserve.
So bring on the next adventure, we are ready with open arms!
Tethered are those who can not see
The narcissist within a honeymoon
Drawn to a snake charmer
Hypnotic, entrancement once captured
Spinning tails of love, only but false hope
Reciprocation an unknown
In the narcissists world, there is only self love
Self appreciation, vanity and gloating
Manipulation and judgement the only language
Until one victim gets away with broken wings
Slipping through the false promises of a future
Charm radiates in hopes for a quick replacement
Only to keep the self centered alive
Kick a can, a bucket
Crawling, rising in pensive stance
Waiting for the fight
As guts knot
Stagger and spew
When words collide
Eerily creeping out
Just to go within
Forgetting who we were
Scratching begging to survive
Hiding behind fearful words
Of hate and betrayal
Only to find reflection
In a Mirror of guilt.
As the night growls from behind;
A body stands on edge;
Precipice taunting a promise of death;
Never sure if the wolves deserve a feeding;
Giving up or giving in;
For those without feeling;
Will never understand;
Pretending there is no empathy a difficult option;
As emotion steals the moments;
Wolves become frenzied with anticipation;
Waiting for their feast;
A body cocoons in a hope for momentary peace;
Delicate wings poke through;
In a warriors stance;
A body will take flight;
While stepping over the threshold of choice.
With a nature as big as the wind;
She flew tails whipping behind her;
Bursting through, she screamed;
Built up fear pushing her all the way;
It was a chance not easily given up;
Unknown forces inciting a whisper
Promising a destiny of advantage;
It being the only way to the top.